Wow, what a year it has been! I feel like the last couple of months I have been so busy with obvious reasons, and time just slips through my hands. Before I know it the day is over and because of that, I haven't been able to blog as much as I wanted to. However, I didn't want to go a year without sharing my yearly A Look Back post especially since this is my sixth year in a row sharing these posts, and Twenty-Twenty was quite a memorable year.
The year began with Rudy and I continuing on our fertility journey. We were set to begin our second IVF cycle, and then in February we finally had our frozen embryo transfer. We transferred a perfect 5BA embryo. I had such a good strong feeling about this transfer, it's unexplainable. Something inside of me told me that this was the embryo that was going to attach to me. This was going to be our embryo that could, would, and did. A little over a week later I took a home pregnancy test and found out I was finally pregnant. This was such a joyous and emotional day for me since it was something I never thought I'd read, "pregnant"! I will remember this day for the rest of my life and the reaction Rudy had when I told him the news. We were finally going to be parents, heck yes!
Shortly after having our pregnancy confirmed COVID happened and so much changed. Non-essential places closed down and we had a stay in place order. This was pretty easy for me since I was in my first trimester and all I wanted to do was sleep! I slept so much and somehow it wasn't enough. I didn't experience any morning sickness, although I did have nausea. I was counting down the days for when I hit the second trimester so that the annoying butt-kicking nausea would subside.
Announcing my pregnancy was something I looked forward to doing for so long. It was exciting but also a scary thing. I was finally pregnant and I always thought, "Ok once I'm pregnant everything will be fine. No more stress or worries." boy was I wrong. Once I got pregnant the worries just went through the roof and I always told myself that once we found and heard a heartbeat everything would be ok. Or once I hit my second trimester now everything would be ok. Hey counting down the days until the halfway mark so that everything will be ok! Let's make it to thirty-four weeks because there's a higher survival rate... alright you get my point. It just never ended. However, Rudy and I were overjoyed when we finally shared the news. The response we received from our loved ones was so overwhelming. We felt so lucky to have the support from so many people and it made us even more excited to bring this new life into the world.
I feel guilty saying this sometimes. Clearly this year was something and filled with so much sadness with all of the events. However, twenty-twenty has been the best year of my life. I was pregnant! I had a great pregnancy. It wasn't necessarily how I envisioned being pregnant especially during a pandemic but we were here. I enjoyed every single second of it and tried to do the most. Laying in bed watching and feeling all the kicks and turns my baby made just about every single day. Took tons of belly pics and videos as my belly grew, had a beautiful small baby shower and had maternity photos taken. It was truly everything I ever wanted. Rudy and I soaked it all up! I was so sad when I thought about how soon the pregnancy would come to an end.
Now October 12, 2020, will forever be the single most best day of my life. This was the day I gave birth to my daughter. For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a mom. After trying to conceive with Rudy for over three years, all of our struggles, all of our heartbreaks, all of the tears shed. On this day it was all worth it and I was finally a mother. Lucy has made all my dreams come true and ever since her birth life has so much more meaning to it. I feel complete. I feel like I'm finally doing exactly what I was put on this earth to do. I was waiting for the moment that she would finally arrive into mine and Rudy's lives. It will be so rewarding to see life through her eyes. I can't wait to watch her grow.
Happy New Years everyone! I hope you all have a wonderful and safe year.
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