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Loving: being pregnant! I know I say this way too much but I'm going to say it again, I can't believe I'm pregnant, finally! I've been so lucky to have been having such an easy pregnancy. Everything I have experienced thus far has been very minor that I can't complain about. I've had nausea since around five or six weeks of pregnancy that lasted until about fourteen weeks. It would come and go through the day. Some days I had it more often throughout the day and other days it was a lot stronger than others. Shortly after entering my second trimester, I started getting round ligament pain, and a few weeks after I had one encounter with lightning crotch. Yes, you read that right just some fun things women get to experience while growing a human in their uterus. These are all normal and happens when your uterus grows. All that aside I've been loving every minute of being pregnant and I'm trying to soak it all up. I've heard women say pregnancy usually drags because you're so anxious to meet your baby in the end, however, I feel like it's been going by super fast. As I'm typing this I'm already seventeen weeks pregnant which means I'm almost at the halfway mark. I can't wait to meet this baby but at the same time, I want it to slow down just a bit because I've wanted this for so long and I don't know if I will ever get to experience this again. Plus this is my first pregnancy, my first baby every moment has been so special.

Excited: about feeling the baby move! Over the last week and a half, I started feeling the baby move and oh my goodness it's such an amazing feeling. So many people kept telling me as I got closer to sixteen weeks that I would soon begin to feel her moving around and I honestly wasn't expecting that to happen until at least eighteen weeks. One day I randomly felt something that felt like a quick muscle spasm and it happened twice back to back. For a moment I questioned it being her kick but I quickly discarded that thought. A few days later I felt something very similar like a light nudge. Again I thought could it be because I was barely going to enter week sixteen. The day I turned sixteen weeks I was laying down and once again felt it, this time it felt like a legit flick and I was certain it was her moving around in there. Since then I have felt her a few times, it still isn't anything consistent. Days go by before I feel her again. I'm so anxious to begin feeling her daily, I just love it. I especially love feeling her because it gives me that reassurance that she is fine in there and I don't have to worry as much. Since I have dealt with infertility for so long I feel it has kind of turned me into a pessimist and I don't like that. I try so hard not to think of the worst but my mind has always been my worst enemy and sometimes for a split second it takes me there. I look forward to each doctor's appointments where I get to see her or hear her heartbeat because it makes me feel so much better. Once I get to feel her wiggling around more often I think I will have more peace of mind with how she's doing.

Doing: tons of baby shopping! I've always enjoyed baby shopping, it's a guilty pleasure of mine. Whenever a friend or family member was having a baby it gave me an excuse to go baby shopping! Now buying things for my own baby that I know is coming in the fall has been the absolute best. Nothing compares to buying baby girl clothes they're just so cute and exciting. Although Rudy and I have had a lot of fun putting together our baby registry. It's not quite done yet since I've been waiting to complete it come to the day stores reopen, some stuff is a lot easier to register for in-person so you can see certain items. It was so exciting when we were browsing for the kind of car seat and stroller we want. Then as soon as we purchased it I couldn't wait for it to arrive. I get so giddy every time I pass by it, we currently have the box in our garage since we won't be using it for a while, but just looking at it and to think that there will soon be a baby in there is wild! We've picked out a crib we really like and that's another item that will be super exciting once we get our hands on it and set it up. We've been prepping for this baby what feels like forever. Everyone says having a baby is expensive which I don't doubt, but we were lucky to have been saving and prepping for her for so long it feels great being able to get her all the things she will need.

Thinking: about my baby shower! At this point in time, I'm still not sure if I'm even going to get a baby shower due to this pandemic and shelter in place. Things seem like they're slowly getting better, stores are slowly opening back up, and states are beginning to reopen. I'm not due until early November so hopefully, I'll have time to start planning and preparing for a baby shower. I have had a theme picked out since we did our first embryo transfer. I have a couple of invitations I love and have to choose from. My mom and I have been talking a lot about all the yummy Brazilian sweets we'll be making for the day leaving me so excited. What I want most is to be able to get all my favorite people together and celebrate this baby girl I have growing inside of me. She's the biggest blessing of all and truly mine and Rudy's miracle baby. Our family couldn't be more excited. It really does suck finally being pregnant and being pregnant during a pandemic. This wasn't how I ever envisioned my pregnancy would be, but I can't complain. I've been lucky to have been home safe with my family. As I said I have plenty of time until I'm due so hopefully by the end of summer we'll be able to celebrate baby Z.

Looking forward to: maternity photos! This is something that has recently been on my mind a lot especially since my belly has started to grow. I'm excited to get to take pictures to capture this chapter in mine and Rudy's lives. We have wanted this for so long so getting maternity photos to have as keepsakes will be so meaningful. Rudy and I started a tradition to take wedding anniversary photos every year and this year I will be pregnant! Now, this is something I can't decide on, should we go ahead and do two photoshoots? A maternity one followed by anniversary ones? Or should we just have them combined and save ourselves the extra trip? We still have a few months to go, our anniversary isn't until September. I do need to think of an outfit to wear along with a location. Rudy has been great with finding the perfect spot for photos, I mean have you seen our two-year anniversary photos? Lots to think about and lots to plan but I'm so excited about it all.